Wednesday 6 July 2011

Crying doesnt mean you are weak. :)

Salam and Hello to everyone.

How was your day today? Hope all of you out there had a good day yaa. Me? I did not had a good day. Sobs sobs. Nearly involved in an accident. But luckily,i am still breathing here. Let me share a bit about it. I was driving on the highway. Yes yes,i was wrong at the very first place. I was driving quite fast. Sorry dude! And i dont know what i was thinking about that moment as tetiba i perasan that the car in front of me made a emergency break. Dapat bayangkan tak keadaan myself that time? Dengan memandu melebihi had laju,tetiba kereta depan berhenti mengejut,i sedaya upaya menekan brek dengan pantasnya.

At that moment,macam2 i pikir dlm kepala hotak ni. Yang paling jelas dlm fikiran is the face of both my Mak and Abah. Masa tu,i pray hard to God to save me from any bad things. Bayangkan kaki ni menekan brek sampai dah hujung2 brek. Kuat pulak tu bunyi nyaa. And i brek pun,i hala stereng ke kanan skit. Tu pun sebab ada orang penah ajar i that kalo brek mengejut,kita kena hala stereng ke tepi supaya tak berlanggar depan2 yg akan wat akibat yg lagi teruk. Terima kasih ya pada yg ajar that perkara to me. Selamat je brek,jantung ni berdegup sangat sangat laju. Tangan i pun menggigil dengan hebatnya. Masa tu rasa bersyukur sangat sebab Tuhan bagi saya peluang untuk teruskan hidup lagi. Syukur ke hadratNya.

Pesan Mak hari hari: 'Akak,bebaik bawak keta. Jangan bawak laju-laju'

Ye betul! I am a very stubborn girl. Degil,sangat degil. Capricorn mmg degil laa. Sorry for other capricorn if im wrong. But for this capricorn named Emmylia,yes yes I am very stubborn. Gile babeh punye. Hahaha. Harap harap bakal suami sangat memahami bab ni. Siapala yang malang tu kan? Masih tidak tau siapa kah gerangannya. Hurmm. Masa kejadian berlaku,airmata sedikit pun tidak menitis. Maybe sebab sebelum ni sudah banyak air mata yang dibazirkan begitu sahaja,mungkin sebab terlalu takut atau terkejut. Mungkin. Tapi time tulih blog ni,rase sebak tu sangat ketara.

You know what? Kadang kadang menangis tu bukan kerana kita gembira atau sedih saja. Tapi kadang kadang menangis tu dapat melegakan hati,dapat menghilangkan segala rasa yang terpendam dalam hati dan dapat mengurangkan semua beban yang dipikul. Menangis tak bermakna orang tu lemah. Menangis tak bermakna orang tu sudah berputus asa. Menangis juga tak bererti orang tu sangat sensitif dan terlalu beremosi. Even im crying now,im crying for many reasons. But it doesnt mean im weak. It doesnt mean that i surrender. Its just a way to somehow release all the burdens you have. Believe me,ive tried and it really helps. Kadang kadang kita rase tak sedap hati,rasa sebak di dada. Tapi kalau kita lepaskan dengan menangis. InsyaAllah rasa lega akan ada. Janganlah menangis sampai mata bengkak teruk pulak. Nnt da tak cantik la. :)

I had good news this morning. Ada panggilan utk exam PTD next week. Alhamdullilah,harap harap boleh jawab dengan berjayanya. Aminnn. As i mentioned in my previous blog,it is my parents hope for me to keje gomen. And yes,my Abah is the one called me early in the morning and told me about it. Macam biasa,surat yang cam dr kerajaan atau spa,mak abah will be the one yg bukak kan utk me. Hehe. So wish me luck,mana tau ada rezeki dengan gomen ke. Huhu. Till we meet again. Love you all out there so muchh. Oh yes,just to mention a bit here that I really miss some of my best friends out there. Hope you guys doing great even I know that I wont be spending great time with you guys no more. So sad but trust me,i miss you guys! Thanks for reading. Take care yaa.

Love,
Mylia :)

2 comments:

  1. cry to reduce stress..good luck for interview!!;)

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  2. Dayah,yup! Release tension! Baru nak amik exam la yang. Thanks!

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